I’ve been debating for the last few months about writing this post. Mainly because I was hoping that things would change and I wouldn’t need to write it.
Scott and I are struggling with infertility. We’ve been wanting to start our family for quite a while now and it hasn’t gone as we planned. It is the hardest thing I have ever been through and it is the hardest thing we have ever been through together.
While it is hard and often heartbreaking, we have so much to be grateful for. We have each other, amazing families, friends, and the gospel of Jesus Christ. I know that we don’t get to choose our trials in this life and most days I really don’t want this one, but I know I have learned so much already from this trial. I have learned more about patience, faith and hope. Scott and I have become closer and we have drawn closer to our Heavenly Father. Trials are meant to create growth and this one has for us both.
When I started this blog and named it Hunters of Happiness I had no idea what the future would bring, but I knew that we would aim to find happiness in everything and that is what we are trying to do now. I don’t think I’ve ever cried more than I have in the last several months. But while life has been hard, it has also been wonderful. Trials come in life and we can choose to look at the good or let the bad eat away at us.
Over the past few months I have gained so much strength and hope from reading and hearing other couples stories about infertility. I know that this is something that many couples struggle with and I hope that maybe I can help just one person understand that they are not alone.
I know that it will all work out the way it’s supposed to, It’s just difficult when it’s not the way you plan. Patience can be painful 🙂
Over the past months these words by Dieter F Uchdorf have taught me a lot.
“Everyone’s situation is different, and the details of each life are unique. Nevertheless, I have learned that there is something that would take away the bitterness that may come into our lives. There is one thing we can do to make life sweeter, more joyful, even glorious. We can be grateful!