I never thought I would be a puppy owner at this point in my life. Sure everyone loves puppies (except for the heartless haha) but I just thought that would be something I did later in life, like when I had a family and a house. But life doesn’t go how you expect usually.
As I talked about here, Scott and I have been wanting to expand our family for quite a while now. Infertility is exhausting emotionally and physically. Treatments become your full time job some weeks and all the shots and hormones take quite a toll. It’s a roller coaster monthly and often daily. Is it worth it? YES. Is it hard? YES. Everybody has to do hard, unfair things in life and right now this is mine. It is heartbreaking and I want nothing more than for it to change, but I have learned so much in the process. I have learned I am much stronger and tougher than I thought I was. I’ve learned how to be positive when it’s really hard. I’ve learned that its okay to have hard, bad days with some good crying. And I’ve also learned that there are so many other amazing, wonderful women going through the same pain silently.
I have to say that getting our puppy has already brought so much healing to my heart. He has given us someone to nurture and love. He has made us feel like parents to an extent. He is my little guy and I just love to take care of him. I feel so lucky to be his furmommy!